2:06am

its 2 in the morning and i just got home from studying. being out since 9.30 and studying all the way to 1.30 in the morning isnt much fun at all. especially when u have people like robin and kelvin around u talking nonsense every other minute. well i sure hope that tomorrows paper will turn out fine.

ive been thinking about you alot lately. you cross my mind each time i see something familiar. and i smile when i think about all the good we've been through. i was such a dumbass letting u go. but its time to turn word into action. let the past stay in the past. nothing is going to haunt me now.

its alright, its ok, im gonna make it anyway

you dont have to apologise for calling me that day. it came as a pleasant surprise. drunk ppl tell the truth and everything thats really on their minds without feeling held back by resposibilities and consequences. you told me the truth that day. and im glad you told me the truth. im glad u let it all out and now i know what i should be doing. and i am diligently working towards it. wait and see. wait and see.

five stories falling

im scared. terrified. life has a funny way of kicking you in the butt and making you realise that everything you've worked and strived so hard for can just be flushed down the drain in a matter of seconds. having your whole world crumble right before your eyes. and not being able to do a single thing about it. do i believe in God? yes i do. and i believe that He is in control of every single situation and every minor detail of my life. He allowed things to happen in a certain way as to ensure that i learn from my own stupid mistakes. im truly scared now. i know God knows wat Hes doing. but im scared. i really am. please dont let my worst fears be realised. please.

goodbye tonight

tonight. i felt stronger. i thought about our situation. i thought about how we've been lately. i thought about how we've managed to maintain a level of intimacy. how we can smile now when we look at each other. how we can sit still and not say anything and not feel wierd. how we can be happy when we have each other around. how your eyes are still so bright. im happy. because the lights are still on. and i havent been deemed a bad agonizing memory yet.

start something

people dont realise their full potential.
most people dont even realise half of their real potential.
they think too low of themselves.
wake up.
start something.
its a new day.
if only you would try.

a walk to remember

when i saw you cry, everything in me cried out. all i wanted to do was hold you. all i wanted to do was hug you and never let you go. everytime your arms are around me i feel secure. i feel the world pass me by. i feel as though nothing else matters. if only we could stay in the moment forever. in only we had time. if only i hadn't been so ignorant. if only i hadn't been that big of an idiot. u say im smart. i beg to differ. if only you knew how i feel now. if only you could catch a glimpse of how i feel inside. if only you could see how i look everynight when i think about us while staring at the photograph by the bedside. then maybe you would understand. then maybe somehow you would be able to fully comprehend how i feel for you.

this is my resolution;i'm crying out

ive thought things over. and its hard enough not being able to be in control of the situation, i have to deal and bear with the fact that her smile is the only thing i want to see every single day. her eyes are bright as i stare into them and that makes me realise that she is the one that ive wanted from day one. i told myself to let go. i've pleaded with myself to let it be. but i dont think its ever going to happen. and i dont want it to ever happen. thinking things over, and deciding that im not going to let things fade without me putting up a fight. ive lost a battle, but the war is still far and long from over. it isnt over. you know it. and i know it. im giving myself a fighting chance. and i hope you will to.

new american classic

just ask the questions. come untie the knots.
say you wont care. please just say you wont care.
retrace the steps as if we forgot.
say you dont care. please just say you dont care.
try to avoid it. but theres not a doubt.
theres one thing i can do nothing...
theres one thing i can do nothing......
theres one thing i can do nothing about...